I thought I'd take my blog to the next level and try vlogging. Hahahaha! I am going slightly bonkers!
Am I the only one that goes around in circles with Google? I was trying to set up a new channel which took me to setting up a Google plus account and somehow I managed to make several of those! Trying to figure out which G+ account was the right one to link to the You Tube channel sent me around in circles again. I felt like I was in one of those mazes that has too many dead ends and you feel like you'll never get out! I think that 'Google Circles' is supposed to be like groups of friends or something. But secretly, I think it refers to the madness of the way that it's set up!
I thought I had it all figured out. I got my YT channel active but then I realised there's another YT channel in there somehow. The other one is linked to my email address, and the one that I've been posting on is linked to this blog address. I couldn't change the current YT url to something simple like 'AnnetteLove' to help people find it and it was stuck on YTQR3684PE9E or something equally impossible to remember. Trying to change the url had me going around in circles again and I kept hitting the same dead end that told me that I couldn't change my url until I had 500 subscribers.
I joined a lovely little Facebook group for people growing an online business and a lovely lady there suggested that I delete the existing channel and start again. I just started a new channel, and was automatically given a url with my name in it. I don't know how that happened as I didn't even have any videos on it, or a single subscriber. sigh.
After all of this, making the actually videos is the easy part! I actually feel comfortable chatting away in front of the camera now. I'm still very new at doing this. Before I start the camera, I have a theme in mind and honestly, I don't always know what is going to come out. I just get my mind out of the way, and let my heart lead. I don't want to be one of those "rah rah...you have to live life exactly how I say...eat what I say...workout like me...rah rah" type. I like to tell a little story, and inspire others by what has worked for me, with tools and tips that I have learned and used in 50 years of life experience.
It's been a huge area of growth for me as I get to see myself up close on camera. Recently I was doing a video overlooking a beautiful...no, an absolutely magnificent area of the coast. My words weren't flowing and I realised that my mind was too involved and I needed to get that out of the way. Once I did, the topic of that day was totally different to what I had planned. I thought that what I said was awesome, the background was amazing....but when I got to editing, all I could see was my wrinkles and my aged skin. I got so down on myself, thinking that youtube is a young person's place, that I should just keep my old self hidden in the safety of blogland.
Then I saw this on Facebook, posted by one of my friends: "Today, I embrace my body. Focusing on what I love about myself I create a confidence that permeates my aura. When I feel good about me, it gives you permission to feel good about you. And so, I practice this. When I look in the mirror I say thank you and put down the critical self harm. I say this affirmative prayer with gratitude. Amen."
And I realised that I had to get back in front of the camera. It is a part of my message to talk to people about getting bolder (not just getting older!). I will not hide my wrinkles or freckles! I will present myself in my Power! My message will attract the people that it is meant to. My focus is to have fun, to talk about the kind of stuff that I talk about on here, but deeper, and exploring the shadows and the strengths and the corners and the cobwebs and the fucking craziness of this life! (I know that I rarely swear, but sometimes, it just feels right to do so!) I want to talk about parenting, children, homeschooling, connection, love, health, relationships, truth, energy, Spirit, living simply and deeply and all that crunchy kind of stuff!
I'm slow getting into it because life happens you know?! There's people to feed, and places to go and I'm not always in the mood to make a video. My family will always be my priority. I refuse to make a video every day for x amount of days, because that doesn't feel authentic to me. I'll make one when I feel like I have something that I really want to say...and I have a fair bit to say lately!! I totally understand why people do those challenges, but my focus isn't on creating a 'following', or making a ton of money from YT. My focus is on sharing my story in the hope that it inspires or helps others. Along the way, I learn more about myself.
Everything that I do has to come from my heart. After years of people pleasing, and suppressing my Power and my voice, I have a lot to chat about, but I won't force it.
I have to reload the three current videos (I told you I was having a slow start, and besides, it's quality, not quantity from me...yeah, that's what I'll tell myself!) to my new channel, then I'll post the new channel link here. This might take a while as it's sooooooo slooooowwww to upload videos here in Backwater 'Straya (that's Aussie-speak for Australia!).
I've been having fun learning lots of tips on video editing, setting up channel art and youtube thumbnails (picmonkey is totes amazeballs!)....'scuse the kid-speak, I've been learning from watching too many videos from 8-15 year old youtube superstars! I'm enjoying the creativity of this whole experience, getting to know more about myself, going deeper and getting clearer on what my Truth is. It really is totes amazeballs!