tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-176431512024-03-07T18:12:50.405+11:00Annette Love......random ramblings on my journey through the maze of life...Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03793103916162653170noreply@blogger.comBlogger540125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-17757501121958911452021-05-01T11:25:00.005+10:002021-05-01T11:25:38.042+10:00The Freedom of Timelessness... I lay in bed, not feeling great. The first head cold that I’ve had in years. My body begging to just. Stay. Still. My mind circling around my ‘to do’ list. Such a habit to get up and get moving through the routine and rituals of the day.There was a little thought....what if...we just stayed here? What if...we let the wisdom of the body Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-83396410503367776932019-12-30T15:39:00.002+11:002019-12-30T15:39:20.613+11:00Colours and chances....
I invite more colour into my life!
I dare to be bold and take more chances!
I am not trying to recapture my youth. God no! That was filled with insecurity, and hesitation, and the need for chemicals to fuel my confidence.
I no longer need those things.
And I am tired of playing small to please others.
I choose to grow Bolder as I grow older!!
I no longer need Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-83486104896150149652019-12-28T18:53:00.002+11:002019-12-28T18:56:46.323+11:00Still a Free SpiritA new year, a new decade is around the corner. It’s not just that though, I’m feeling on the cusp on something bigger...new even.
Which is really refreshing as I’ve been feeling the need to hermit myself in the past couple of years. I’ve been feeling sad, and down, and overwhelmed with life. But I will talk more about that another time. Because lately, I’m starting to Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-4353286645608544592019-12-27T19:09:00.000+11:002019-12-28T18:58:04.322+11:00Getting unstuck...This feeling of feeling ‘stuck’...it’s familiar. I hate it. I feel angry at those around me that have caused this.
But is that true?
Does that feel good, or right?
Is that a lazy way of giving up on my own dreams? By blaming others?
The shit gets real.
Yeah, life gets really hard sometimes, when tons of responsibility demands attention to other people and things.
What Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-49594272010406198872019-12-17T20:42:00.000+11:002019-12-17T20:42:39.830+11:00Write, right?
Feeling overwhelmed, underwhelmed, wanting more, needing less.
So much time in between posts here.
In between the busy, I’m trying to find me again. Where did I go?
Feeling so stressed, so tired, so drained by the end of the day that I sit on the floor and watch some easy entertaining on the big black box.
Tick tock....another day goes by, another Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-89270675351795402782018-07-30T19:25:00.000+10:002018-07-30T19:37:29.715+10:00Always, Love...Hello Friends,
Too much has happened since my last post. I won’t even try to catch up.
I received some very disturbing news about six weeks ago. Processing it was consuming me. I was giving energy to a situation that could not be changed, and the person responsible was no longer around to explain.
I felt that continually focusing on the situation was giving it energy, which Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-67637286220525598192017-07-31T06:02:00.000+10:002017-07-31T06:02:45.639+10:00The Adventure Continues...About 10 years ago, I was on a walk with a friend and our children. We happened upon an old graveyard and we took time to look at some of the old headstones. My friend told me what she would want on her headstone. Mostly about her children and her accomplishments. I was happy for her. Up to that point, I hadn't given a lot of thought to the end of my life, though I Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-83789386278064769022017-06-04T06:51:00.000+10:002017-06-04T06:51:36.484+10:00Pointless Consumption
"In 2007, the journalist Adam Welz records, 13 rhinos were killed by poachers in South Africa. This year, so far, 585 have been shot. No one is entirely sure why. But one answer is that very rich people in Vietnam are now sprinkling ground rhino horn on their food or snorting it like cocaine to display their wealth. It’s grotesque, but it scarcely differs from what almost everyone in Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-45394235216054521522017-04-30T08:11:00.001+10:002017-05-01T08:12:14.562+10:00My evolution...This blogging journey has been interesting. For me anyway. Recently, I randomly selected some old posts and it's been interesting to read them and see what was going on in my life then. Some made me laugh out loud. Some made me a little sad. Some made me smile, and some made me think "what the...?"!
I can see some patterns. Some breakthroughs. Some timesAnnettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-89693220895889361802017-04-27T12:09:00.001+10:002022-02-13T10:40:07.189+11:00Speaking...I had a friend tell me that another mutual friend has not been in touch with me lately, because she doesn't know where she stands with me. She likes me, but her main reason? Because I don't speak a lot.
I wasn't hurt or upset. I didn't even feel the need to defend myself. All of those things would have been certain once upon a time.
It was almost like a could feel a Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-66431353948885648542017-04-23T15:33:00.000+10:002017-04-30T07:22:37.922+10:00Slow down..."Can you slow down please Mom?", said my 11 year old son as he reached out to hold my hand.
We were walking along the beach, soon after the sunrise.
We often did this. For me, it was a dual purpose activity. Get some exercise for me and whoever else came along with me, and spending time in nature.
I didn't realise how often the first reason dominated.
There I was, fast walking Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-64454780938078378562017-04-14T08:23:00.000+10:002017-04-14T10:11:07.894+10:00Control...and SurrenderMercury retrograde, or whatever other forces within me and outside of me...thank you.
It was a tough, emotional realisation, but one that I had sensed was coming.
My issue with Control.
Why? When did I first feel out of control?
Definitely when I started school, a couple of months before I turned 5. Possibly even before then.
I remember walking myself home from school when Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-82954466831555959482017-03-31T13:50:00.000+11:002017-04-14T09:37:08.943+10:00Lessons in the waterI started a new tradition on my 50th birthday. I go to the beach to watch the sunrise, then I dive into the water at the same time that I was born all of those years ago. Usually, that is two minutes after the official sunrise time. I don't know if it is because I was born in the morning, that I particularly like that time of the day. Whatever, I just do.
I recently Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-49401965504547144072017-01-01T08:15:00.000+11:002017-04-14T09:38:44.806+10:00Letting go...In the past six weeks, I've let go of a lot.
A lot of material items, and a lot of inner releases as well.
It has been the most relaxed and joyful holiday season I've experienced for a very long time.
I've done major decluttering so many times that the process is familiar and even easy. I don't follow anyone's 'rules' for doing so. For example, some people try and get their Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-67962810511644022132016-09-21T16:22:00.003+10:002016-09-21T16:28:52.301+10:00Photos, and a little catch up...I just realised that I haven't posted on here since early June. Crikey! What have I been doing?!
Nicholas turned 11! We celebrated with a family day, doing whatever he wanted to do. Shortly before his birthday, he was given an amazing Canon digital SLR camera by a new friend who had recently bought herself a new camera and was no longer using this one. Wow oh wow! &Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-89660945338532007172016-06-03T16:21:00.000+10:002016-06-04T07:31:14.629+10:00Facing the fogI'm not always sweetness and sparkles. I don't think it's realistic to be optimistic 100% of the time. I will say though, that my down days are much further apart than they used to be, and they are much shorter in duration.
I thought I was quite fine recently, but Cary sensed that I had an underlying unhappiness, in the way that some people can feel an earthquake coming. Once Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-37449040292362469332016-05-17T17:26:00.000+10:002016-05-17T17:26:06.825+10:00photosHow did it get to be the 17th of May already?!! Life has been cruising along, and I've forgotten to post photos on here. Here's a little snippet of the past however many months...
Nicky and I
AJ at Muay Thai
Currumbin Beach...Ahhhh
Lucky and Lady (I don't know which is which, they swim on the lake out the front of our place and often come together to visitAnnettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-86202583893909105732016-02-05T14:29:00.000+11:002016-02-05T14:29:01.495+11:00photos...
I will aim to post more photos this year!
Here are a few pics from December 2015...
Sami's 18th birthday dinner...
She likes to muck around by posing with my reading glasses!
Another beautiful sunrise...
Playing in our front yard...
Christmas morning walk along the beach...
Seagulls on our lake...
The boys having fun...
AJ being Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-77953598538241715862016-02-03T16:30:00.000+11:002016-02-04T06:40:45.191+11:00Learning to Relax...Hello again!
Things that I've been doing....
Cary has been using the computer a lot in the past few months, so I stopped doing youtube videos, to free up the computer for him. I had enjoyed doing those, but they did take up some time.
After returning home from the family reunion, I focused on upcoming events...Thanksgiving, Cary's birthday, Sami's 18th birthday (!!), family visiting, Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-4149674564718038932016-02-03T15:06:00.001+11:002016-02-03T15:06:52.473+11:00Finding me...I just found this post that I wrote three months ago, in my drafts...time to post it...
I've been a mama for almost 18 years. I remember being a little girl, hugging my dolly and longing for the day that I would be a mother. I didn't want to rush it though... I felt a bit restless as a teen and thought that I needed to experience more of life in order to find myself. I was Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-64187710405603306942015-10-03T15:11:00.001+10:002015-10-03T15:11:06.298+10:00Judgement...My kids and I went on a little road trip recently to visit family about 7 hours south of here.
The drive there seemed unusually long. Partially because it was raining most of the way, and partially because my Learner-driver daughter was driving for several hours. In the state that we were in, she is limited to travelling at 90km/hr when the speed for full licensed drivers is up to Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-25048732025650387052015-08-20T16:21:00.001+10:002015-08-20T17:24:14.833+10:00New YouTube channel!!!I did it! I worked through the frustration and got the result that I wanted! I moved my videos onto my new youtube channel. Now I've got all of the fiddly business out of the way, I can get back to vlogging and video editing. Yay me!
Da da da daaaaaa..... click on the link below, and please subscribe to my channel if you like it!
https://www.youtube.com/c/Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-85337520794848788092015-08-19T19:31:00.001+10:002015-08-20T16:24:01.093+10:00Madness!!! And Power!!!! And Vlogging!!!I thought I'd take my blog to the next level and try vlogging. Hahahaha! I am going slightly bonkers!
Am I the only one that goes around in circles with Google? I was trying to set up a new channel which took me to setting up a Google plus account and somehow I managed to make several of those! Trying to figure out which G+ account was the right one to link to theAnnettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-50886420309538276112015-08-04T10:41:00.000+10:002015-08-04T10:45:25.051+10:00What do I want?I feel like I am on the right path. I feel grounded and more sure of myself...stronger and more determined. However, I can't say for sure exactly where I'm going. I just know that I'm getting to where I'm supposed to be, in the way that I'm supposed to.
Some people may find that statement very vague. Others will totally get it. It's okay either way, because I am Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17643151.post-14110748177814379692015-07-27T13:11:00.001+10:002015-07-27T13:19:23.307+10:00EmPowered!So, I'm 50 years old.
Somehow, in a very quiet, deep part of me, I allowed a little belief to take hold.
One that said that at this age, I was just a bit past being Powerful.
One that said I didn't need to be Sexy or Strong.
One that said that "hormones" were responsible for my low libido, low energy, headaches, weight gain, moods, etc...
No. No more.
I didn't even know that those Annettehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02824631192020743029noreply@blogger.com0