Beautiful breakthrough....to a greater awareness and acceptance of my past. An enormous feeling of relief and peace...moving to a new place where I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION to feel good, right now. In healing my past, I feel expanded in my present. Lighter, fuller..
Now I am contemplating Love - in its pure form, unconditional. How many people have experienced this? Perhaps at times, maybe as a very young child from our mothers, before we started doing the 'wrong' thing and being punished and having love withheld at times because of our actions - often stemming from just not knowing how to play the game. Maybe from a new friend or lover in the early stages before little irritations became bigger ones. Maybe from a best friend if we are lucky enough to have one of those. When we experience moments of unconditional love, it's a glimpse into possibility, infinity even, but the sheer fact that that kind of love didn't or doesn't last at that level surely makes it a conditional love.
Given the nature of humans as we traipse through this existence, it's a pretty safe thing to say that the only person you can ever rely on, is yourself. You may have a fantastic relationship with your partner and think that you know them inside and out, but to be on the same wavelength 100% of the time, is extremely rare dontcha think? Are there times when those little irritations get in the way, or they appear distant, or you want a little more space? All natural. I'm just trying to grasp what relationship based on unconditional love, would actually look and feel like.
Want to know what I think? I don't think you can experience that with anyone else.....
....until you have it for and with yourself.
How would your life be different right now, if you gave yourself permission...to love yourself unconditionally? No guilt, no regrets, no apologies, no holding back approval of yourself....just acceptance....and peace....and feeling oh so good with this very moment, every single moment?
What kind of person would you be if you stopped judging yourself and just filled those spaces with loving yourself?
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
My baby recently turned 7!!! Of course I know he is not a 'baby' anymore, but he is my youngest child.
With those big-boy teeth, he sure doesn't look like a baby anyway.
On his birthday morning, with "the girls", our three pet rats. AJ still has his Rosie. Nicholas' rat Ratsta died last month (she was THE BEST pet rat ever!!!). After a few weeks, Rosie seemed a little lonely so we went to get another rat but ended up with two more. Nicholas chose Cupcake - a dark grey rat with a white heart-shaped spot on her chest (which we didn't discover until after we'd come home). She is hiding in his shirt in the above photo. Summer chose Sally - a little tan coloured sweetie.
Our little tough guys!